what a wuss

i found out a month ago that i had to go to a different campus at school to do science labs for my physics course. its a campus i havent had class on, so i have been whining about going. this morning, while i was moaning about it again because they are due thursday, my mother not so gen tly reminded me that i have traveled italy by myself and slept on a bench in spain for two nights and that i could probably handle piscataway...touche ma. touche.

wishing my friends were in town...

The spring tends to be a hard part of the year for me, usually for very little reason, and this Spring is no exception. I try really hard to not be as negative as I used to be, or have a tendency to be, but this year I'm really struggling to hold on to my resolve. I'm stir-crazy, like every year. That I can deal with. But in an effort to overcome...I don't know, overcome something, whatever it is that has been driving me crazy since I can remember, I have given up meat, alcohol, sugar, laziness, and started exercising every day. I committed myself to this because I wanted to feel better, physically and emotionally, and heal the damage I wreak on myself when I get stressed.
 But this isn't going well...I've realized that I now have rid myself of every major vice I have, and suddenly I have no way to cope or comfort myself. I decided not to take my same sculpture class this year with a plan in mind to expand what I was learning and take risks. Well, I don't think I'm learning very much in my other classes and I've been shunned from my school's art community. But risks, they're good right? This is just one of my annual depressive episodes, right? Cuz I know I should be positive, but this sucks.

Sorry for this post, I'm sure happier ones will come soon. bear with me...